Have you ever...

In the infertility world... adoption world... adding to your family world.... While waiting to add to your family have you ever secretly hoped that someone you know who is about to have a baby (whether they be a family member, close friend, co-worker ...ETC.) won't name the baby a name you have secretly hoped to name your child?  Am I narcissistic for saying that? 

Before Dan and I had Dawson we had a whole list of names that we would name our someday children. 

While we were hoping to adopt this last winter (HERE)  my sister was about to have a baby girl. All I kept thinking was that no one knows that we are hoping to adopt this soon to be baby, I hope that they don't pick the name that I have been waiting forever to name a little girl. I know I know that sounds silly but I really liked the name and families get silly about the same names in the same families however I kind of feel that maybe it doesn't really matter. 

 Sometimes I wonder, when I learn of someone in the family who is newly pregnant sometimes I wonder if in the past the name thing bothered me because it almost seemed as though if they have a Hannah first then our Hannah must not be coming? Maybe I am just embarrassing myself by saying all of this? If this at all makes any sense??