Typically when that happens it seems in most cases the relationship dissolves, but she still contacts us but I find it hard to be in contact.... is that bad? is it wrong?? I care for her deeply I just feel inside out with her contact.
Dan and I are okay to not have a baby for now in fact we are not pursing adoption right now. We both would really like to pursue it when Dawson goes into the first grade. We've done a lot of moves and we are finally getting settled into a new home, our 13th move in 8 and a half years. (crazy circumstances..its been rough!!)
We have been on this second adoption journey since spring of 2009. I am so grateful to have Dawson, he is the sunshine to my soul. I just feel like I want to move from the pursuit of adoption right now and focus on my present family. I would love it if someone called and said hey... I am looking to place I would love to adopt... I just don't feel like being in the pursuit for now!
I saw my friend's baby yesterday and in the past I would have turned inside out and I just did not feel that way. I want the baby that is meant for our family, not yours not hers not theirs, but ours. Our baby and I feel okay to wait.
Our next little one will come when it is the right time and for now I just don't feel like pursuing it at all. I feel like we will know when the time is right to either pursue it again or... maybe and I really hope that through word of mouth we will find our right baby whether it is today or in two years.
Right now I relish this:
And loving this
